My last 'backspace' was like the 'n hajjar'th one, that apprehensive i am to just blot down something which need not even make sense,which i am very sure will be the fate of this present one.My english is good enough to understand any blog, good enough to atleast get the essence , but not that good to write one myself, or so think I. I thought of ways to make this blog give you an impression that iam actually good at it desperately searching for metaphors& fancy words ( even now i have dictionary.com,and urbandictionary.com open in tabs). I tried , desperately (using the word 2nd time in two lines shoud give you an idea of the level of -- again you know), i thought i had everything with me to come up with a blog of the kind i always admired,i had all the dictionaries , thesaureses and infinite time. But something was missing, i couldnt continue., infact i coudnt start, this added to the already builded up desperation (n=3 if u guys are keeping count) and things started appearing even worse, this is when i went back to the ' i want to write a blog' phase, because atleast then i had nothing to feel bad about, i always liked this 'i want to' phase, ' i want to mug', ' i want jog' , ' i want to go to the gym' , it keeps you off the actual work and what, you have nothing to feel bad about , but anyways let us come back to my deperation(4) to come up with a rocking blog, so where was I,ya so me starting a blog and all that crap right, ya so there was something missing, even after i had all i needed possibly, it was that i was so desperately(5) trying to be someone, someone i admire ( i dont mean one particular person) never actually realsing that 'that someone' is as good as he or she (fairer sex included only for the sake of generality)is because he/she was just being himself and not actually someone else, so wihout gettin into the someones' someones' story i end this blog by confusing you even more than ever. But anyway iam happy i made a start, i'll be what iam , if at a given stage of time i am bad at something if you ask me its better to be bad at it properly than to pretend to be good , that way atleast you are good at being bad i guess.
good or bad , and i knw its the latter more probably do comment.
